Heart burn, burning throat, pressure behind my ears, I panic about everything i believe that i am dying. Well we all are right?? Not a happy thought but something i am starting to come to terms with. I am 37. At best i have 50 years left but that's probably more like 30 if you look at family history and the way i have treated my body. so at best i have less than half of my life life left. That's a pretty sobering thought.
I have 2 choices.
1: I can carry on the same path of constantly worrying about my health and never getting anything done
2: I can just get on with life and hope for the best?
I am going with option 2 life is 2 short for me to mope about feeling ill. I might as well just go for it what have i got to loose. I am over 50% of the way though my life and that's a pass in any exam the rest is just gravy.
I have done loads and lived my life as best i could but the last few years have been stolen from me by poor mental health brought on by myself. Its really annoying to think i have wasted about 4 years of doing "STUFF" through worry which will probably impact my health fitness and longevity making the time i have even less.
so on the plus side i have made a break though and am going for it on a negative i do still feel rough.
onward to glory
stay safe, speak soon
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